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well i haven't put anything in here in atleast a year so here goes,last night was pretty sweet, got to spend time with the ppl who mean the most to me, sorry everyone about seeming like i was on edge, most of you know probly why, but im not goin to put it on here. but yea happy new years everyone and nice party emily. |
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[Aug. 25th, 2005|03:21 pm] |
“fix this faded soul”
This path was not easy
Facing what hurts most
Wishing to heal wounds of old
Putting aside my past
Cutting ties and burying them
I have become a betrayal
To those I care about
Forgetting their faces
Escaping into myself
Trying to fix this faded soul
In my dreams were demons
My words filled with anger
I stand with full strength
Rejuvenated by the time
Spent defeating all my shadows
Darkness destroyed from within
A new mind reveled
. I have become a betrayal
To those I care about
Forgetting their faces
Escaping into myself
Trying to fix this faded soul
In my dreams were demons
My words filled with anger |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|12:58 am] |
“my suicide now ends”
Lost of pain
Seeing the confusion
Letting it disappear
My walls filled with it
Are clean now
Thy soul is free
This broken habit
I put away the needles
The bottle to be sat down
Cuts healing the blade gone
My suicide now ends
A life is reassembled
Lost of anger
No grudges held
Letting them away
My writing filled with anger
Are erased now
Thy soul is free
This broken habit
I put away the pills
The rope to be sat down
Lungs healing the smoke gone
My suicide now ends
A life reassembled
Saved when thought not to be
A body being rebuilt
Saved when thought not to be
A mind realizing its faults
This broken habit
I put away the needles
The bottle to be sat down
Cuts healing the blade gone
My suicide now ends
A life is reassembled
This broken habit
I put away the pills
The rope to be sat down
Lungs healing the smoke gone
My suicide now ends
A life reassembled |
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[Jun. 29th, 2005|12:08 am] |
“skin”
The good and bad are shown
Backwards I now go
Down the alleyway
The tunnels light in closed in shadow
The flames coming out of the ground
Fighting myself on the inside
Seeking the end to this conflict
This internal war
No confront to be found
A loosing battle
Seeming to find its way out
My skin filled with anger
Old habits reawakening
A fate dammed to darkness
My struggle is never ending
I can’t stop it
These clouds have become darken
A prison inescapable
my sadness has been writing
still more to come
the rope pulled away
no hope for peace
Seeking the end to this conflict
This internal war
No confront to be found
A loosing battle
Seeming to find its way out
My skin filled with anger
Old habits reawakening
A fate dammed to darkness |
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[Jun. 21st, 2005|03:34 pm] |
“statue”
This funeral is brief
The burial quick
Rain comes down from above
Sun missed from the sky
People garter in front of the tombstone
My name inscribed
No year yet in place
Soon to come it will
My veins will be seen
As they turn blue
The could has caught me
A frozen Ice statue
I shatter into pieces
To your touch
A hand filled with grief
I have made you into a stone statue.
You found me in shock
My heart beat was gone
You stood over my body
Filled to the break with grief
I must have know
That the needle would have done this
Overdosed on sorrow
That would never end
My veins will be seen
As they turn blue
The could has caught me
A frozen Ice statue
I shatter into pieces
To your touch
A hand filled with grief
I have made you into a stone statue. |
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[Jun. 13th, 2005|10:47 pm] |
“Shedding tears”
The door opens
To the house that’s broken
All I see is the rope
And her hanging from it
Then the door shuts
The screams come
I feel this hand closing over my heart
And now I faint
No mercy was felt
The blade just fell
Cutting deep into the wound
Her spirit has been stripped
All that’s left is a ghostly figure
Watching my movements
Shedding tears when I hurt
What could have caused her to do this?
This question haunts my dreams
No reason is clear
I push myself down in the hole
Concealing myself from her
her eyes so beautiful
that’s all I see in my memories
No mercy was felt
The blade just fell
Cutting deep into the wound
Her spirit has been stripped
All that’s left is a ghostly figure
Watching my movements
Shedding tears when I hurt |
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[Jun. 12th, 2005|11:01 pm] |
“Undead”
He walks past the grave
Noticing her name is blank
He runs looking for her
The undead has been awaken
His soul will not rest till he says good-bye
She is nowhere to be found
His footsteps are fading
As if he was a ghost
So close to her but still far
He’s walking as if he’s the undead
The UN rested will now fall
His grave is next to be made
Her time ran out
No not this he yells
He hits the grave
His fist starts to bleed
Blood run into the ground
The gun is grabbed
The trigger is pulled
His footsteps are fading
As if he was a ghost
So close to her but still far
He’s walking as if he’s the undead
The UN rested will now fall
His grave is next to be made
The ghost now walks
This soul is now trapped
Dammed to the earth
While she is high above
Unreachable
His footsteps are fading
As if he was a ghost
So close to her but still far
He’s walking as if he’s the undead
The Un rested will now fall
His grave is next to be made |
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[Jun. 7th, 2005|09:14 pm] |
“hidden”
This ability you have
To bring me out of the shell
I am truly grateful
The defeats may come
But I’ll stand and take it
The next will hurt less
Till I hurt no more
You became what lift me
You made me feel
You made me find myself
Forcing the search so deep
To pull out the hidden
I am once again walking
The chains are gone
To learn forgiveness
A lesson taught from your kindness
The armor broken, no more grieving
underneath the child comes
to face the world
none will break his soul
You became what lift me
You made me feel
You made me find myself
Forcing the search so deep
To pull out the hidden
I am once again walking
The chains are gone |
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[Jun. 5th, 2005|03:47 pm] |
well i haven't updated this thing in awhile, life has been good latly. nothing really new, been working on my writing and guitar. hoping to play with this band later in the summer.I'm for once happy. not focusing on the bad. I've learn to just let it go and not hold on to all these old feelings. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2005|08:35 pm] |
“Kind hearted”
I realized the truth
The nightmares have stopped
The wounds are healing
I am moving forward
No more dwelling on the past
Convinced that all is fine
The ones around me helped
To question all I’ve believed
To wish I saw this before
I now see who I am
A kind hearted soul
Not lost to hurt
Not consumed by hate
Being alive with reasons
I found my way
Meeting these people has
Shown me what I needed
That I’m not alone
All have their problems
I’ve learned to care again
Once cold hearted, now not
The walls now come down
No need for the protection
Again ready to care and love
What was broken is fixed
To question all I’ve believed
To wish I saw this before
I now see who I am
A kind hearted soul
Not lost to hurt
Not consumed by hate
Being alive with reasons
I found my way |
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